HOW STUPID CAN YOU BE!?

Hi guys today I want to talk to you about how stupid people can be and that everybody says
They are going to stick up for you if something happens but when it when it comes down to it it’s just words nothing more.
So as many of you know I’m broke up with the man I was going to marry tomorrow actually, I finally had enough… I just hand enough. A couple of days ago I was really frustrated I felt alone, said, and most of all I felt angry.

I felt like everybody was trying to make their wedding through my eyes… And I felt like everything I did was wrong, everybody was trying to tell me how I should live my second life and how I should do my wedding. So I was trying to get Ahold of Jerom every way I could on second life and even on his facebook now let me just be clear about something… When I first started dating Jerom he told me ” I will give you my facebook so that when im not online in second life you can write to me if there’s anything you need help with.” This was on his real life facebook account but he still said go ahead and write to me whenever you need help with something. So I got on his page sent him a message that only he could see. All of a sudden somebody starts to write to me saying he is not your honey please go get a life… Well want you know… It was his wife… I still don’t understand why she would take his password and login to facebook… But anyway when I saw that I finally just had enough… So I went home packed my bags and took my kids and I left… Right off the pat people that are his friends started to im me saying stuff like the fact that I was wrong and blah blah blah… My second life sister became really angry with me I don’t want to get into detail but let’s just say I haven’t talked to her sense that evening. So now and none of the people that use to talk to me are not.

Yesterday evening one of Jeroms friends started im me saying that Jerom wanted to talk to me so after a little while I gave up and I’m wrote to him. Then he started saying that I was taking second life too seriously and by that he was thinking that I was falling in love with him in real life? How stupid can you be? I know the difference between second life and real life you are so freaking stupid you are crazy why the hell would I fall in love with you in real life? I don’t even know if you in real life you all are so messed up I can’t even believe it.

And then you started saying second life is just a game to me and I see you just as my friend and I said why the hell would you will propose to me then!! It’s not me than!!!!!!!
It’s not me that doesn’t know the difference between real life and second life its YOU!
Get the hell out of my second life and one more thing… Nobody! Nobody! Owns my second life I Own myself and my life!

Get off my case!

Seriously get off my case! This is suppose to be the happiest day of my life and you are making it the worst, and a day that I want to avoid! Do you get a kick out of this or something? Every time I tried to do something you are always right up in my face telling me I shouldn’t do it I should do and this instead let me tell you something this is not your wedding its Mine! Not the yours!
How many times do I have to defend myself on how I want my wedding to be? How many? Because right now I’m at my breaking point with you and with everybody that is trying to tell me how I should do my second life!

I’m sick of this! I’m so sick of this! I know that you’re trying to help, but you’re only making it worse!

Do you understand that I want to call off my own wedding because of you? I’m sick of trying to please people, this is our day not everyone else’s.

I am only getting married once and now I want to call it off because of you!

Second life is supposed to be a place for a fun and excitement without all the drama but why all are second life becoming more and more like real life? All the fighting, crying, and heartaches Why? I am seriously thinking about not being on second life for a while because of all the Fucking drama!

This is not fun for me anymore all I hear from left and right are no you can’t do that, you can’t do this and blah blah blah!
I love Jerom with all my heart, with every fiber of my being so I’m gonna do whatever it takes for me to get married to him even if it means calling off the wedding ceremony.

I can’t take all the drama and shit not right now! In fact I can’t take drama at all…EVER

I am marrying Jerom not everybody else that’s it
So I’m seriously thinking about calling off the wedding ceremony I had enough from everybody… Thank you for making me feel like I do not want to play second life in a more…. Are you happy now?….

Just because your mother does not mean you have to stop being sexy or sexual

Today i want to talk to you guys about something that I feel is important to say, I feel that people automatically asume  that just because you are mother you dress a certain way I don’t know why people think that…. Of course as a mother you have to dress appropriately and in appropriately I mean not dressing like a slut. Now I just want to say this is how I feel I don’t mean that everybody should think about how the dress Every body has there own Second Life so I DON´T want tostart a fight with anybody!

I have two beautiful kids that I absolutely love and adore but as I said just because I am the mother of two does not mean that I am a conservative with my body or that I don’t dress up in sexy clothes because I do! I take  pictures of myself in underwear doing sexy poses I absolutely love the feeling it gives me… I feel sexy, attractive and I do think that having kids should not stop you from still having fun with your husband or boyfriend for that matter if you know what I mean girls *Wink*

Just imagine this for a second…your husband comes home after a hard use the day at work… He sees you waering only his shirt while you are doing the dishes, it brings a smile to his face as he walks over to you wrapping his arms around you and whispers ” my my my hello baby, don’t you look nice today” you feel his arms around you… And you can’t help but to smile… He nuzzels your neck while he lets out a soft giggle.

It’s important to keep the the romance going even after you have kids and what I’m telling you now you can also use in real life btw.

As I usually say… every day you should fall in love with your partner all over again.

Every day should be like the first date, the first kiss, the first time you ever saw each other….
Don’t let the romans die keep it alive and make sure you fall in love every day of your life….

Dress sexy, tease him, walk around in underwear around the house, mount his lap, kiss him slowly, do whatever you know turns him on!

I guarantee you… It will be like the first time you ever made love, the first kiss, the first date, and the first time you ever saw each other… Trust me once you do in this… You will never go back to the old!

So yes I dress sexy, I take photos, I walk around in underwear when I’m home and I know that he is going to be home soon.
Being a mother have to change who you are or how you dress and the most important thing is you don’t have to let the romance between you and your husband die because of you two being parents you can still have fun with each other and you can make yourself fall in love every day.

puma Chenevert

Im Here!

I am so sorry guys! Note but my real life is messy right now so I am so sorry for not writing a blog in such a long time!

And on top of this I’m getting married in Second life!!!
I’m so excited I can’t wait to finally walked down the aisle one of my biggest dreams i SL is finally coming true, now with that being said I am going to tell you allow something that is really bugging me.

I don’t know how to begin… But my second life brother has friends that I don’t like because of certain things… Anyway I was talking to my brother the other day about people that I’m going to invite to me and Jeroms wedding and all of a sudden he says” you know they are going to be really disappointed if you don’t invite them”
And now I am thinking in my head” why should I inviteYOUR friends to MY Wedding” I mean this is my and Jeroms wedding so why should they come to our wedding? I’m not even friends with them. I am trying my best to stay away from a situation where I have to me them because if “the friends” say something that bothers me I’m afraid that I am going to be going crazy on them, and if I do I might get kicked out of second life… And I don’t want that of course. So I’m trying to stay away and just to my own thing. Because I can’t be around people that I don’t like because of a very honest person and people might think I’m a bitch but if I say something that is on my mind am being truthful about it then I am the one that walks away with a clear conscience… And if people don’t like my attitude so be it may all have to be friends with me ’cause I have my friends, and they stand by me through whatever no matter what.

And to be honest with you I don’t like the way my brother is becoming….. I’m sorry but that’s the truth… Thank you to all that is sticking by me and not leaving me…

If this spirits up my family in second life so be it then I will see that blood is not thicker than water even in second life….

Thank you for listening to me I love you Jerom with all my heart and with every breath I take!

He is here soon!

Hi you!

hope you all are good, i myself feel like im going to pop any second.

I have been feeling pressure sence yesterday so im just trying to take it easy,

I sent a IM to my midwife yesterday and she said not to worry and that my body is getting ready for labor.

I should be a pro at this sence it is my second labor but im not*hihihi*

i had a wonderful time with jerom lastnight. he is so loveing i love him with all my heart even though its just in sl i love him with all my heart!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Yes he loves my belly:)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

a little Mommy and Daddy time;)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Belly Photo:)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

See the way he is looking at me….When a man looks at you that way…. YOU know he LOVES you

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I LOVE YOU JEROM!

 

 

Thank you to everyone who is reading my blog I dont know how meny it is that dose that tho *smiles*

Thank you everyone!

2 weeks to go now!

Hello Everyone! Hope you are good, god i don’t know where to start!

I  Have some Exiting news….I have finally found a boyfriend! I Love him so much!!

His name is jerom, He is very romantic and loving to me AND to Hanna. He is someone I have been looking for, for almost 2 years in sl.

So am holding on to him with all my heart.

We have moved in together and things couldn’t be better! Im so happy I just want to Scream.

I can’t wait for him to drop down on one knee and ask me to marry him or at least be his partner.

I really love him with all I ‘am

So 2 weeks left until I go in to Labor, I feel nerves but I know its going to go well im just afraid of those labor pains and I don’t know how jerom is going to react when I go in to labor the day before am due (just to have the labor a little more realistic)

I hope I doesn’t laugh. I hope takes it seriously.

Have good one everybody have to go feed Hanna.

Hugs puma

Nine months pregnant!!

 

Hi everybody…  yes yes I know long time no see!

I hope you all are good and you had a great Christmas and New Year’s Eve.  My Christmas and New Year’s Eve wasn’t that great…  I suddenly started thinking about why am I here?  Why am I alive?  When there is so many other little babies that don’t get past 24 hours of their first life.  I am alive but I am disabled…  And I consider myself lucky or I can’t even consider myself lucky because I don’t feel that way.  There is so many parents every day that goes to the hospital with excitement and joy but as to leave the hospital with no baby

I guess all of these thoughts came scream when my boyfriend was at work at the hospital and he told me about this little boy that was born premature, I’m not sure of how much he weighed but he was really, really tiny and he had to draw blood from this little guy and he had to do it three times to get it right.  My boyfriend told me that little boy was more concerned that is about the light he had over his head then what my boyfriend was trying to do.  *smiles*

I don’t know but sometimes I just want a breakdown and scream or cry.

Although I might seem strong and confident on the outside, inside I just want to crack, breakdown, scream, Kick, cry and Lose my mind for a couple of seconds….  Just too let everything out.

But I feel as though I can’t do that because I am married (yes I consider myself married) to a U.S.  Navy sailor….  I feel as though I need to be strong and confident because nobody wants to be married to a woman that weak and does not know what she wants in life.

Now I’m not saying that I hide these feelings from him, I don’t….  He keeps me grounded and he makes me smile every day, he takes me away from these thoughts…  And he loves me for who I am although I have my thoughts sometimes.

Now on to my pregnancy…

I’m in mind nine month of pregnancy this has been wonderful I love being pregnant!  I might go for a third one but then my husband has to be on second life more he says and I agree with him.

I know he wants to be there for me more then he is able to be right now.

 I can’t wait for this little guy to come out and his daddy wants him out! NOW!

*giggles* daddy has been waiting for you a long time now he loves you very much and so does mommy!

I am going to my Midwife appointment on the 5^th of February so I hope everything checks out good!

I went to the store today in second life and I found this amazingly beautiful Mesh dress!  With the store is called sexy Mamas and is for maternity clothing!  It was the only 299 Lindens so I grabbed it!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Last but not least  I would like to thank my dear friend Gaelyn Seomun for making me this beautiful nine month picture as always you are amazing! Gaelyn Seomun!

That’s all for me I will write as soon as I can!

See you next time!

/puma

 

8 monthes along- Jacob has had a restless night

Hi everybody it’s puma here!  I hope you had a nice Christmas!

I am on so long now and Jacob is getting really heavy I can specially Feel it in my back.

I am going in to my midwife appointment today to see how everything is progressing.

Jacob has had a really restless night today, I had to walk around my house for about  two hours before he finally settled down.

This pregnancy has gone by faster than my first one even though it’s nine months, as my first one.

After this pregnancy I will wait before I have the next one if I ever have a third one

I am really looking forward to meeting this little guyJ

That’s turning mommy blue from the inside and out:D

He is really kicking my butt!

I will write more when I am back from the appointment!

Puma

7 Monthes Pregnant…. Allmost Chritmas!

 

Hi Everybody! Sorry again that i haven’t been updating for a while again but my head has just been spinning with all the things that has happened in real life, but never the less im here again.

Oh, where do I start? I have moved again to The most beautiful Place in second life (I think)

Im still renting from MYSTICAL RENTALS it is the best landlord I have ever had The Main Land lord is Sandro Halasy inwold so if your looking to rent a house, land or skybox MYSTICAL RENTALS

Is the place you want to go to!

 

I went to My midwife appointment the 4^th of December and Everything looks good, I’m just a little worried that he will get so big I wont be able to push him out!

Its getting harder and harder to move around now but I really love it!

My Second Life is really good right now. But at times its really stressful, and that’s the way it is now….

I got This job as a Real Estate Agent at ::: Neverland Estates :::.. Agency. At first I really did think I could do this and that it was going to be easy, just show a couple of lands and then close down a deal.

But its really hard for me and I don’t seem to fit in with those im working with;(

and that makes me sad. I talked to J about it last night and he basically told me that he didn’t want me to work for them, because if im so stressed out on closing a deal im not working to my full potential and he is right!!!

But what else can I do? I don’t want to have to relay on him for money, that’s just something I cant do.

Thats the way it is! Soon its Christmas!! and A new year I really hope next year is a LOT calmer and fun for me because this year has been tough for me.

 

I have been to a Photo-shoot With Gaelyn! It was so fun!! *giggles*

And the Photos are as beautiful as always!

Jacob looks like he is Yawning *smiles with a tear in her eye* mommy loves you!

 

With this last photo i would like to thank everybody that is fallowing my blog!

Happy Holidays!

see you Next year!!

I love you

 

 

 

6 monthes

Hi everybody I hope you guys are OK?

I’m doing good myself, I decided to leave my boyfriend because he has to get his head back on straight.

So now I’m a single mother again and I think this is better. Even though I feel empty, it’s best this way.

I’m currently six months pregnant and so far so good and I have everything set up for his arrival *smiles*

I guess I’m kind of used to doing things alone and being independent, but I feel the need to be loved by someone who loves me.

I feel the need to have somebody but if I don’t find a any one so be it.

I feel good about my choice of leaving him but I won’t deny that my heart is broken…Again!

So from now on I am going to stop looking for a man.

I just end up hurt more then happy.

being a mother even second life is hard but I think it’s harder mentally that it is physically.

I don’t know… But I just feel that I can do this on my own and not with somebody.

My next midwife appointment is on the seventh of November at 6:00 AM slt

So of course I’m going to write about it!

/see you next time puma